50 signs you listen to MCR Danger Days too much

 These came for one of the MCRmy, on of my fellow killjoys on MCR's facebook page , ones with an X in brackets next ti them respond to the ones that refer to me

 

#50- You know the track listing. (x)
#49- You headbang so hard during any song that you get whiplash. (x)
#48- Your parents are humming Na Na Na.
#47- Your parents are humming any song off of the album.
#46- Your parents don't tell you to turn it down because they know that you can't hear them.
#45- You sing the songs at school and tell kids that don't care that you're singing MCR.
#44- You randomly yell RUN RUN BUNNY RUN during any serious activity. (x)
#43- Your new favorite song by MCR is from this album. (x)
#42- You know the names of the killjoys. (x)
#41- You've drawn countless DD related things.
#40- You have a poster from Kerrang!, SPIN, or Rolling Stone on your wall, ceiling, or binder.
#39- You have explained the story of the Killjoys to one or more people. (x)
#38- Your parents knew Na Na Na before the album came out.
#37- Your parents knew any song before the album came out.
#36- You draw song titles, killjoy names, rayguns, or Killjoy symbols on your schoolpapers.
#35- You read the lyric book word for word like a Bible.
#34- You've made a killjoy mask out of paper and markers. (x) (technicly paper mache and paint)
#33- You know that Vampire Money is a joke song about Twilight.  (x)
#31- You have searched for MCR just to read the articles about DD. (x)
#30- You get mad at critics that don't like the new album. (x)
#29- You know the exact hair color, exact clothing, and the mask or helmet of every killjoy and can describe them vividly. (x)
#28- You long for Fun Poison. (x)
#27- You look for anything in everyday life that reminds you of DD. (x)
#26- You know that Dr. Death Defying is Steve Montano. (x)
#25- You know that Show Pony is Ricky Rebel. (x)
#24- You know that Jimmy Urine is the lead drac. (x)
#23- You know that Jimmy is in Lyn-Z's band, Mindless Self Indulgence.
#22- You cried during the SING video. (x)
#21- You feel the need to kick Korse in the crotch. (x)
#20- You analyzed the SING video for any signs that the Killjoys were still alive. (x)
#19- You caught that Mikey was only shot in the arm. (x)
#18- Therefore, Mikey lives.
#17- You were surprised when Ray got shot.
#16- You have your own raygun. (x)
#15- You yell at haters visciously. (x)
#14- You've lived on this page since September.
#13- You've become friends with everyone on this page, except the haters. (x) (well almost)
#12- You don't post regular Facebook statuses anymore due to this page. (x)
#11- You tell the people on this page more than you tell your parents. (x)
#10- Danger Days is the most important thing in your life now. (x)
#9- You've listened to DD more that 20 times in a row. (x)
#8- You flip out when you see a scratch on your CD. (x)
#7- You know every song, word for word, CHORD FOR CHORD, DRUMBEAT FOR DRUMBEAT. (x)
#6- You were shocked to read in the credits that BOB helped with the writing of some of the songs.
#5- You randomly burst out yelling NANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANANA daily. (X)
#4- You still watch the Listening Party even though you have the CD.
#3- You sing along to the songs everytime you listen to them. (x)
#2- Your parents sing along to the songs.
AND NUMBER ONE-
You read this post just to see if you've done any of these (x)

The Killjoy's Final Stand chapter 1 The day that started it all

he Killjoys final stand
Chapter one
The day that started it all

It was just like every other day, I’d be fighting Dracs, trying to find a decent meal and some place to bunker down to listen to Dr D’s transmissions, or for a transmission of a fellow killjoy in need.
After what seemed like hours of running I finally found a cave to hideout in for a little while, ‘damn I wish I had a car’ I thought as I ran into the cave, Ray gun in hand and mask firmly strapped on, at least there was one thing my fellow killjoys, My brothers and sister could be proud of a had a sense of when to keep my mask on and ray gun at my side, my name is Angel Darkstorm and I spend my days keeping zone six free of Dracs, although at the moment I have been having a bit of trouble but I intended on solving that problem as soon as I could but in the mean time I will just have to keep myself safe.

‘it's almost time’ I thought as I flicked my radio on making sure it wasn’t up to loud as I didn’t want the Dracs to find me at least not yet.
I sat patiently and that all too familiar voice made its way from the radio it was Dr Death defying.

Look alive, Sunshine
109 in the sky but the pigs won't quit
You're here with me: Dr. Death Defying
I'll be your surgeon, your proctor, your helicopter
Pumpin' out the slaughtermatic sounds to keep you alive
A system failure for the masses, anti-matter for the master plan
Louder than God's revolver and twice as shiny

This one's for all of you rock'n'rollers
All you crash queens and motor babies

Listen up!
The future is bulletproof!
The aftermath is secondary!
It's time to do it now and do it loud!
Killjoys, make some noise!

And then the music started softly and quietly I sang along

Drugs! Gimme drugs. Gimme drugs.
I don't need it, but I'll sell what you got,
take the cash and I'll keep it.
Eight legs to the wall, hit the gas, kill them all.
and we crawl! and we crawl! and we crawl!
You Be My Detonator!

Love! Gimme love. Gimme love.
I don't need it, but I'll take what I want from your heart
and I keep it in a bag, in a box, put an X on the floor
Gimme more! Gimme more! Gimme more!

Shut up and sing it with me!


(( Na-Na-Na... ))
From mall security,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
To every enemy,
We're on your property,
Standing in V-formation.

(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Let's blow an artery,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Eat plastic surgery,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Keep your apology.
Give us more detonation!

((More. Gimme more
Gimme more))

Oh, let me tell you about the sad man.
Shut up and let me see your jazz hands.
Remember when you were a madman,
Thought you was BATMAN!
And hit the party with a gas can.
Kiss me you animal!

(( Na-Na-Na... ))
You run the company,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Fuck like a Kennedy,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
I think we'd rather be
Burning your information.

(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Let's blow an artery,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Eat plastic surgery
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Keep your apology
Give us more detonation!

Spoken:
And right here, right now,
All the way in Battery City.
The little children, raise their open filthy palms, like tiny daggers up to heaven.
And all the Juvie hall, and the Ritalin rats,
ask angels made from neon and fucking garbage scream out!
"What will save us?"
and the sky opened up ...

Everybody wants to change the world, everybody wants to change the world.
But no one, no one wants to die.
Wanna try?
Wanna try?
Wanna try?
Wanna try?
Wanna try?
Now!
I'll be your detonator!

(( instrumental break ))

(( Na-Na-Na... ))

(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Make no apology,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
It's death or victory,
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
On my authority,
Crash and burn,
Young and loaded,

(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Drop like a bullet shell
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
Dress like a sleeper cell
(( Na-Na-Na... ))
I'd rather go to hell,,
Than be in purgatory.
Cut my hair.
Gag and bore me.
Pull this pin,
Let this world explode!


Smiling to myself as the song ended I went to remove my mask as I had an itch on my nose, however as I was about to lift it I hear a twig snap outside the cave quickly and with trembling hands I switched my radio of and slowly walked to the front of the cave ray gun in my hand ready to kill any Dracs it was then that I saw it the massive fight going on outside the cave I couldn’t believe it there were Dracs everywhere and the famous and fabulous killjoys the very first, the ones that started this whole rebellion were fighting them, I felt so useless I wanted to help but I was stuck frozen unable to move I just stood there at the front of the cave my whole body shaking I couldn’t even hold my ray gun straight.

About an hour later everything calmed down all the Dracs had been defeated and the fabulous killjoys were gone as well I remained standing still for a few moments before I realized by staying at the cave I was putting myself in danger there would be bound to be more Dracs storming the area soon. Grabbing my radio I raced out of the cave following the tire tracks I saw in the dirt hoping that it might lead me to them, however after running for what felt like hours I saw a site no one would ever want to see I saw my idols the fabulous killjoys sprawled on the ground. A small gasp escaped my lips as I moved closer ‘please don’t let them be…’ I started to think but I couldn’t even finish the thought. Silently I walked towards fun ghoul gently placing two fingers against his neck but before I had a chance to tell it he had a pulse his Eyes flicked open as his hand grabbed my arm with his other hand reaching for his ray gun, “I…” I stumbled unable to form any words I was scared of what might happen next “a…am I… are you an angel” were the words that came from his lips which calmed me glad that he didn’t seem to want to kill me I looked him in the eyes “not quite” I replied but whether or not I was an angel was not important right now I needed to find out what happened.

Stepping back a bit I allowed fun ghoul some space to get up at which point I knew what I needed to do, stepping across to Jett Star I gently tapped on his helmet instantly he lifted his visor and said almost exactly the same as fun ghoul “are you an angel” this made me chuckle softly “Angel Darkstorm at your service” was all I said before walking over to kobra kid and tapping his helmet as well causing him to jolt upright giving me an awful fright as I stumbled backwards kobra looked at his brothers jet star and fun ghoul before looking back at me, I silently glanced at party poison there was no way I was going to be the one to bring him out of unconsciousness I knew if he freaked out he very well could kill me, luckily kobra took the job of awaking his brother.

“Poison wake up” said kobra kid placing his hand on party poisons shoulder causing him to jolt upright wincing in pain as he did so, I stood so silent I was not surprised he didn’t see me. “They took her they fucking took her” he screamed causing us all to have to block our ears. “I know man I know” said kobra trying to calm his brother.
“We have to save here” muttered party poison.
“I know but we need a plan” replied Jet star getting up and walking over to them
“I have one we go to battery city storm their headquarters and get her back” replied Party Poison “either your with me or you’re not but I’m going to save her” he added seeing his brothers expressions.
“We’re with you man” said the other three in unison

I was speechless it was as if they had all forgotten I was there and hearing them talk of going on this… this suicide mission it scared me, it was at the point party poison looked over at me it was like he was staring straight past my mask and into my soul silently I pulled my mask off and he stood up and walked over to me staring straight into my bright blue eyes “and you are” he said his voice flowing straight through me “going with you, you cannot go on such a suicidal mission not alone” I replied my voice trembling “no you are not” he replied before turning away from me picking his mask and gun up off the ground, I stood still trembling but it wasn’t fear for me it was fear for them Fun Ghoul silently walked over to me “he’s right angel you can’t go with us I and I’m sure he dose to know you are strong in your own way and you want to help us with this but you’d be helping us more by just staying alive” and with that he walked towards their trams am with the others and before I could do anything else they were gone.

I was not about to let this happen I would somehow find my way to battery city to help them but my first job was to find a car or some other fast form of transport, putting my mask back on and holding my ray gun firmly I set out with my mind set firmly on finding some way to get into battery city silently I turned my radio back on hopping that maybe Dr D might be transmitting something to calm my nerves with her radio strapped safely to my side I ran as fast as I could.

Killjoys lets make some noise

heres to all you killjoys out there who have the album in one form or another

KEEP THE NOISE GOING ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT AND DAY WE'LL STOP BL/i EVEN IF IT KILLS US

The one thing Angel Darkstorm could not protect

t was in that moment
I felt as though my heart had fallen from my chest
all this time i thought you would do what was right
stop tellling lies
but then i heard the worst lie of all
i thought i might have been able to save this
save our friendship of six years
but then i heard what you've said
i felt so hurt

i guess this is just one of the many things that Angel Darkstorm just couldn't protect

Continuing the contamination part 3 My Chemical Romance - "Na Na Na" (Official Music Video)

Continueing the contamination pt 2 My Chemical Romance - "SING" - Official Music Video

Continuing the contamination pt1 Dr. Death Defying Listening Party - MCR - Danger Days: The True Lives Of...

It's a revolution a mass contamination Do it now & Do it loud, Killjoys make some noise

I have to admit i have been slacking off on posting of late but that it due to becoming an obsessed killjoy, I just love MCR's new album  and the killjoy revolution sweeping around the world Although i cant get the album just yet i'll still be shining the killjoy spirit blasting their message and pumping up the volume while listening to Dr. Death Defying Listening Party - MCR - Danger Days: The True Lives Of The Fabulous Killjoys, i am hoping that someone might be able to get me the album for christmas so i can enjoy the true lives of the fabulous killjoys much much more

Angel Darkstorm Signing off from zone 6

Hot new look and Harry potter

really now what more could you want hehe...

Well i've got my hair all frizzed up and im ready to go
for a change im wearing fishnet stockings and a skirt well above my knees
on my right leg my knee hi black and white sock and on the left a knee hi black and red sock
on my neck a black lace choker and on my head my black aiw headband

I$m already to go see harry potter and the deathly hallows today YAY

I guess this is goodbye then

I gave you a chance to talk to me, and i know for a fact u weren't as drunk as you said you were and i know we set the plan i guess its a good thing i didnt buy the tickets at that time, i was never trying to make you feel guilty i was just severely disappointed but it seems you cant see that when your so stuck in your own little world, i still love you as a sister but i just dont know if i can love you as a friend if this is the what i can expect all the time

another song another day another time reminding me of what im still going through

here's a whole lot of things
That I will forgive
But I just can't take a liar
I was by your side
Til the very end
Til you pushed me in the fire
I tried to believe you
But something is wrong
You wont look in my eyes
Tell me what's going on

it's you and me against the world
that's what you said, that's what you said
if you can't be honest with me,
then I'm affraid this is the end

hurry up, hurry up
if you ever really cared about me
tell the truth, give it up
you sound guilty, cause you're stuttering

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering

Seconds turn into minutes now
But you wont give me an answer
you can tell me this
you can tell me that
but dont say you dont remember
Cause I know you better
than you know yourself
so dont say I'm crazy
I know very well

it's you and me against the world
that's what you said, that's what you said
if you can't be honest with me,
then I'm affraid this is the end

hurry up, hurry up
if you ever really cared about me
tell the truth, give it up
you sound guilty, cause you're stuttering

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering

I-I-I dont-don't wanna hear you're ss-orr-ry now
The-ee-ee best thing you can do for me
is just spit it out
I-I-I dont-dont wanna hear you ss-orr-ry now
stop-stop-stop stuttering your worlds
it's only making you look worse

hurry up, hurry up
if you ever really cared about me
tell the truth, give it up
you sound guilty, cause you're stuttering

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering

(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, E-e-e-e-e-e)
(oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-whoa)
yeah you're stuttering

I'm tired

I'm tired of waiting please cant you just admit that its not my fault already i need to get some sleep instead of just laying in my bed crying please how much longer must i undergo this torture you've forced upon me

I love you but i dont know if its enough anymore

so you still havent called to apoligise and i still dont think that it should be up to me, im sure ur constently looking at FB like i look at yours and you have to had reallised by now how i am feeling, i just dont know if i love you enough to keep letting you toy with my mind this way, i understand how you are feeling well as much as i can so why cant you just try and see things from my point of view then always expecting everyone to see if from your point of view and making me feel like the bad guy.

not sure if im quite ready for the wait yet

oh what a fun morning this will be i'm going to the bundaberg rum distillery as their releasing a limited edition bottle of rum and my sister from the other side of the country wants me to buy here one.

they officaly release it at 10am this morning and the bottles are numbered and their expecting a huge turn out so me and my dad are aiming to get there around 8am and see how we go big ish though ITS RAINING

I think maybe this could be the end

I've been thinking a lot lately and i have been acting very much unlike the friend i always believed i was, i have been selfish and a real bitch i know i should be the bigger person but its not all my fault and i cant take all of the responsibility like i always seem to do, its not always about you and it hurts when you dont even remember the plans we made, I'm sorry but as much as i love you and always believed we'd be friends forever i just dont know if i can look past this i just cant take the pain anymore I will always love you and lil potata chip just like my sis and nephew but i cant keep doing this i am sorry.

round and round in circles

god i feel so unsettled today i cant stop walking around i have so much in my head just trying to get out i just cant relax i really wish i knew where i out my camera >_<

A song that really describes my feelings about you at the moment

Breathe you out
Breathe you in
You keep coming back to tell me
you’re the one who could have been
and my eyes see it all so clear
It was long ago and far away but it never disappears
I try to put it in the past
Hold on to myself and don’t look back

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

So let me go
Just let me fly away
Let me feel the space between us growing deeper
And much darker every day
Watch me now and I’ll be someone new
My heart will be unbroken
It will open up for everyone but you
Even when I cross the line
It's like a lie I’ve told a thousand times

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

And part of me still believes
When you ay you’re gonna stick around
And part of me still believes
We can find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try
So let's just say goodbye
Forever

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under

I don’t wanna dream about
All the things that never were
Maybe I can live without
When I’m out from under
I don’t wanna feel the pain
What good would it do me now
I’ll get it all figured out
When I’m out from under
When I'm out from under

Are you happy now

so now that you've done all this and made me doubt our friendship and feel like im the selfish, guilty hypocritical bitch are you happy, seriously i think our friendship might not be worth all this anymore so i hope your really happy now cos i surly aint happy with you

dont try and insinuate i dont fucking understand when i understand more then you give me credit for

Most people dont know this hell even my dad dosent i suffer anxiety and depression

based on the definition you posted

loss of interest in activities that were once interesting or enjoyable - yep i get that quite often
 loss of appetite with weight loss or overeating with weight gain - i find that i occasionally cant help but eat or simply dont feel hungry
 loss of emotional expression (flat affect)
a persistently sad, anxious or empty mood- get that
 feelings of hopelessness - quite often feel that
 pessimism
 guilt - yep get that too
  worthlessness, or helplessness - yep one thing i've felt a lot
social withdrawal- yes but its not as often as the rest considering my depression generally starts with being ditched
unusual fatigue, low energy level, a feeling of being slowed down - i actualy get that one quite offten as well
sleep disturbance with insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping; trouble concentrating, remembering, or making decisions - lets include the fact that i quite offten get dreams of death with that
; unusual restlessness or irritability; - the reason i get upset so easily
persistent physical problems such as headaches, digestive disorders, or chronic pain that do not respond to treatment - i do tend to get dreadfull headaches that even a panadol cant kill
; thoughts of death or suicide or suicide attempts - again i quite often get dreams of death

in 2007 i was diagnosed with anxiety

emotional symptoms of anxiety

• Feelings of apprehension or dread
• Trouble concentrating
• Feeling tense and jumpy
• Anticipating the worst

• Irritability
• Restlessness
• Watching for signs of danger
• Feeling like your mind’s gone blank

physical symptoms

• Pounding heart
• Sweating
• Stomach upset or dizziness
• Frequent urination or diarrhea
• Shortness of breath

• Tremors and twitches
• Muscle tension
• Headaches
• Fatigue
• Insomnia

and now for some things i live with in my life
My dad has cancer and is losing his eyesite his dr says in the next year it could be completely gone he will most likely never see me get married or have children of my own

in 2005 on the first of january my parents broke up and i got stuck between all the arguing

back in 2006 my dad and i lost everything when we were in cyclone larry and my mother threw everything we had in a trailer out in the rain.

in 2007 two days before my 17th birthday my dad our housemate my sisters ex one of my friends and me were all almost killed when we hit a cow which left me getting little sleep for months cos everytime i closed my eyes i could see the cow comming at the window

in march that year my dads best friend and one of the people who i always called my uncle died for weeks after that i couldnt sleep without having to have my light on and i dont like being alone outside in the dark

starting in 2008/09 i begain having bad dreams about everyone i love getting baddly hurt or dieing and around the same time my step brothers brother died in a car crash so now i will never get to meet him

2010 i'm starting to come out of my shell abit i found myself becoming less socially awkward but then my friends started having less time and not wanting to spend time with me, everytime i make plans they fall through

i understand a lot more then im givin credit for

I feel like your trying to kill me

You've done it again, bailed on something i was so excited about, you wait untill we started planning then tell me that you dont want to go because you dont like the hustle and bustle on the first day, then why the hell did you not say when i first started planning, i can't do this anymore.

Suffering sneeze attacks

isnt it funny how its always the last month of spring that brings out the sneeze in me with the need to use hairspray and other aerosols making it worse i'd sneeze anywhere from five to ten times in a row no wonder i get a headache nearly every night at least my hay fever isnt as bad as years past no wonder i need glasses.

Dreaming in the dark

I went to bed last night i played the music on my ipod i was having a good sleep then suddenly it happened.

I dreamed the me and two of the Jess's were living together, we had so much fun like we used to when we were young, we went to a course and it was great but then you were gone no one knew how or why you died.

what a terrible dream i found tears falling from my eyes i hoped that my mind will not start playing this game again making me lose so much sleep fearing the dark.

Photography is your friend

 livin the techno colored dream

 love in black and white

 come walk with me

 oh Mai its snow

 Dreaming in a techno color world

 down the rabbit hole we go

 smiling down from above

 Day dreaming

 falling with style

 failing a tree

 I promise to always stand by you

 shining love

 Super deb

We may not live at pride rock but this is the tree of life

I'm not seeking attention i just need to vent

so as always i've been doing some profile stalking cos i like to see what the people i have in the past argued with are saying and what their up to and i noticed one person started a ranting part on their profile just like me and as i read through it two points came to my eyes i giggled upon reading it as it seemed to be directed at me heh good to see my vents get noticed but it wont stop me from venting on my rant page i honestly dont care if i upset you or make you think im childish.

oh and FYI as is tradition with my shoutbox ball its not brought to you by the cc its brought to you by me and i will do things my way so there will be the one thing your all abandoning just done my way

Random rants part 1

taken straight from my MC profile

Hi there well it seems you found my about me/random ranting page if you like or don’t like what your reading or anything like that shoot me through a comment.

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If you don't like anything about my rants feel free to tell me but in all honesty don't expect me to do anything about it cos i doubt i will
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I shall start by introducing myself, well my name is Falicia but i do go by lots of other random names or Alias’, I guess the different names are depending on my moods at the time I.E Katey is the can be mean, likes mind games, and will stand her ground side of me however she still feels lots of pain, where as the carrie side of me is the strong side kinda like Carrie Bradshaw on SATC, Jess is the side of me that can think things really wrong and brush it off as being a jess thing.




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Hehehe let the fun begin...



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About five years ago i had a few big events happen in my life such as my family falling apart, having my heart broken, going through one of the biggest storms in Australian history, and i became pretty depressed and i felt the need to keep my sadness hidden and although i cried myself to sleep nearly every night i still needed to vent so i started writing poetry i found it really helped i still get very depressed at times and cry at night but the pains not as bad anymore and now i wish to share my poetry with you all here on MC http://poetrypoem.com/cgi-bin/index.pl?&am...3&item=home so please comment, and feel free to give advice

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Dark Anime Rose
http://dark-anime-rose.deviantart.com/
a joint photography DA account
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Lets take a minute to think about mental illness it's not always noticeable, let me tell you a secret I have a mental illness
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Dont take my dislike of you personally its just i have some trust issues
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I be your Alice if you'll be my hatter

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I like to design dresses, costumes, i love to design graphics and i have my own request topic which you can request at if you want.

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Oh I am sorry I didnt mean to make you JUST LOSE THE GAME... .... or did i mean to make you LOSE THE GAME.... oh look i did it again don't you just love THE GAME ........ see when it comes to THE GAME i am always going to make you lose, so just to be clear YOU JUST LOST THE GAME and in case ur confused and can't stop wondering what THE GAME is well YOU JUST LOST THE GAME AGAIN.

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I see things are starting to take affect, your begining to notice TOO BAD ITS TOO LATE COS IM ALREADY GONE
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Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way you lie
Love the way you lie

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If only i could do such a thing Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now
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Have i gone mad, I'm afraid so your absolutely bonkers, off your head, totally crazy but i'll tell you a secret... ... ... WE'RE ALL MAD HERE
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I want to go to wonderland so that maybe i could find out who i really am just like alice did
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<sup>I might seem kind but in all honesty I'm not as kind as some may think I've been going through a lot in my life and because of it I've finally started to see things from my own perspective, some things i feel have been handled incorrectly and i plan to take hold of the situation and apply the way i think it should be handled, some of you may not like my ideas on the situation and it may cause some problems with some of you that i call my friends but you will eventually get over it and see my point of view.

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and there you go again making things all about you, saying you originally had the idea that someone else had but no one went for it, if that was the case why didn't you just do it anyway.</sup>

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I know what your doing playing your little games and trying to manipulate everyone to do your bidding just like last time
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^{I once thought i was selfish but then i look at some of the other people around here and i realize that i am not as selfish as some of them wanting things simply cos they feel their the right one for it but wont let others explain things, say things need to be done but they don't seem to be willing to participate in things they are already in, when you look at the bigger picture the selfish one its not me.}

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you want things done but don't realize its up to the owners and try to push the general moderators and administration, you claim we dont have time to wait.
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I shall keep biting my tongue and let this anger bottle up just for the sake of keeping the peace but mark my words one day when i decide the time is right i will blow and you wont like it, so maybe you should look at yourself before having a go at my friends
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Like OMG you can not simply decide that an RP character is more beautiful then others or the most important so please just stop it... ... ...
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If your so sick of people trying to make everything about them well why do you try to make your characters be the centre of attention and make everything about them

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I love bright colors and i know you all do too but on a computer screen i can not see bright colors and i knew a few who cant either so please stop using them when i ask you too cos sometimes it can be stuff i really need to see.

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how many times do i have to ask what you want i might be able to read Another Mornings and my daddy's mind but i cant read everyone's minds.
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You think your so special, just because everyone seems so nice, you just dont realize what we say when where out of site.
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I'm sorry you seem to be confusing me with someone who actually gives a damn about your little problems when i have bigger problems of my own.

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I’m an Angel in disguise

Hidden beneath all your lies

At sometimes I cry

Because I feel its goodbye

I try to fly high

But I drown in all my fears

Why can’t everything ever be so clear




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If i were to suddenly disappear WHAT WOULD YOU DO

Here i am, once again

so I'm back sitting at this computer trying to blog, no doubt like all the rest i will forget in the end but untill then i will do my best, I guess lately i have been feeling really depressed and like i've been being selfish. I hate the fact that i put so much work into things and it dosent even get noticed, i hate that every time i plan things and look foward to it every one comes up with some excuse to ditch me thus leaving me to not be able to go, i hate that all my friends are happy in love and im left here all alone. I hate that I come up with this huge massive plan and i find myself losing faith in it. yeah I can be one F****d up person sometimes